I’ve been feeling a nudge lately and uncharacteristically decided to pay attention before the whopping kick in the backside. Sometimes it’s the “still small voice” that penetrates my fog, but more often than not, getting my attention requires sky writing from the finger of God himself.
I’m thick like that.
In the beginning of the new year while everyone was making resolutions and picking words to focus them (like ‘Intentional’, chosen by Megan), I decided to live abundantly this year. Armed with John 10:10, determination, and cup of hot cocoa, I stormed 2011. Only, I’ve gotten off course. February found me not having time to write, frustrated with homeschooling, wanting an army of friends and family to come whisk me away to anyplace warm, and depressed over my extreme case of cabin fever. March hasn’t been much better.
That ends today.
I’ve taken inventory and I’m out of the good, sweet, and fat-free. I need a total overhaul of everything from poor eating habits to managing my laundry. I get thrown off course way to easily.
James 1:6-8 But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed. For let not that man think that he shall receive any thing of the Lord. A double minded man is unstable in all his ways.
Not in my faith, but in my service – my actions. In my heart and mind I’m resolved to do one thing, live one way, and accomplish one goal, but my actions run amuck by noontime. I’m tossed like a load of dirty socks in the spin cycle.
I’m missing my mark – Abundant Living.
Barely surviving, half-heartedness, things undone, wasted time, squandered days, harsh words, hardened heart, split-second decisions, lack of self-control, inability to say no, poor management, hopelessness – these do not equal an abundant life.
It’s time for me once again live like who I am – an adopted daughter of the almighty God, set free from sin and death, and called to live a life holy and acceptable.
Before you say anything, I realize not every day of this new year has been a wasted or defeated day. Not at all. But, I can do better. I must. What I do affects not only today, but also tomorrow. It changes me and also my husband and children. We cannot live our lives without touching others. I want my touch to positive.
I don’t want to merely speak a bunch of empty words, allow my thoughtless actions to hurt others, or carelessly squander time that could be productive. I want to be deliberate, love with abandon, trust with faith, and work with fervor.
I want the abundant life. Anything less is not good enough.
What about you? Has your year been good enough?
Sharing The Love
A few great blog posts I’ve recently read: Intentionally Intentional Successes and Fails, Telling Myself No, What Makes Men Romantic, and What It Really Means to be Free…ok, just one more – Wifey Wendesday: Should we be upset when our husbands are tempted?