Some days all the gears in my brain turn in tandem and I sit dumbstruck with truth. Kinda like the day when my son’s teacher (not me) took a book and wacked him in the head, only to have him say “Oh!” – the ‘I get it’ kind of ‘Oh’. I don’t have many of these days mind you, but when I do, it’s a crossroads of sorts, a place of decision.
I know I’m psyching you up for a great life-altering post, and I hate to disappoint…
There’s always a ‘but’. It’s usually big and too often it’s mine.
I’ve got nothing revolutionary for you today. I’m not about to change the world with my few, ok, many words. I’m just struck by the fact that time is passing right before my very eyes and I usually do not notice.
I’m too busy, too tired, too hormonal, too overworked and underpaid, too lazy, and too whiny to realize what is going on around me.
Today, while looking through some pictures, I realized my kids are growing up. You see, I live with these guys – I school them – I play with them – I try to ignore them – I cleaned their skinned knees – I listen to them talk – I yell at them – I hug them – I feed them, but I don’t always notice that they are transforming from little kid into young person.
It’s a scary realization. I mean, what if I’m totally screwing them up?
Do you ever think that about your ability to parent?
I know I’m probably doing more good than harm. It’s just that the decisions were easier when they were two, three, and four. They’re getting older and the choices are getting tougher. I guess that’s how life works.
To steal Oprah’s term, my ‘Aha’ moment sparked my need to be thankful. I missed posting last Thursday, not because I lacked thanks, but because I lacked time. Today I am taking the time while I have it.
- freedom to raise my kids how I choose
- warming light & cool breezes
- vanilla beans
- stepping away
- made beds
- a box of hand-me-down hair thingies
Something inside of me tells me to get things done now. Now is the time. Don’t wait until tomorrow, or next year, or ten years from now. Reach your goals now. Change what you don’t like now. Be a better you now. Do those things God is calling you to do now.
- miracles that still happen
- doggie drool
- lots of shelves
- a reorganized kitchen
- a growing son, grumpy with angst
- pictures to record time
- a dead snake
That’s what time tells me.
- playing basketball with my kids
- friends over for the morning
- new strawberry plants
- marshmallows roasted over an open fire
- skateboards and skinned knees
- the instinct to hope
- a few minutes of quiet
- the kids creek swimming
- dirty feet
- four chapters written
- my daughter’s plans for a ‘dream’ room
Being a skilled procrastinator, I buck at the idea. Yes, I have goals, but the everyday and the insignificant get in my way. I’m sidetracked way too easily. I don’t need distractions. I am a distraction!
I’m not sure how my light-bulb moment will play out in the practical. I nearly said, “Tomorrow will tell.”; however, just two paragraphs ago I wrote NOW. Silly me.
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Are you thankful today? Feel free to share your list in the comments.